Sometimes fun, Sometimes Weird

_{Photo by Jed Villejo}

When it comes to talking about myself, I always find it hard to do that and I don't know why. Sometimes I spend a lot of time just thinking about what word I should start with, or what word perfectly describes me and that is because when describing ourselves, we always tend to say the best things about ourselves and then include a little bit of bad traits here and there just to make everyone believe that we don't think our self perfect when in reality we do.

I always try to avoid that, maybe that's why I always find it hard to describe myself because I'm always trying to be real and then that somehow gets me to start thinking deep about what kind of person I am and before I know it, I'm thirty minutes in, lost in my thoughts and doing nothing else.

Well unfortunately for me, today's contest has to do with us describing and telling people about the kind of person we feel we are, so here goes nothing.

When I think about myself, one thing comes to mind and that is that I like my space, my alone time. But here's where it gets tricky, in as much as I love my personal space and probably spending time alone, I feel a bit sad when I see people doing something as a group and I'm left out (when in reality, the reason why I was left out was because they all know I want to be left alone).

I think the best way to describe it is that I love being alone in the midst of a crowd. I enjoy watching people but I don't want anyone up in my business. I could be in a crowded area all day and say nothing and yet when I come back home, I'd feel like I just had one of the best days ever because even though I had said nothing all day, everyone else who had been busy talking had been nothing but entertainment to me.

But then I guess those things I mentioned up there only happens on my weird days (which isn't a lot), other days I'm a cool guy who a lot of his friends had asked him to go do stand up comedy or something because of how funny they think he is.

When I'm in a good mood, I'm probably the best person you'd want to spend the whole of your day with but when my mood is sour, it'd be best you just left me alone. Well, aside from my moods, I really love sports (football or soccer to be precise), and I don't have a lot of female friends (actually I do, I just never give back the same amount of energy they give to me so they just end up giving up on me because they don't want it to look like they're forcing the friendship or anything), I don't know why I decided to include that here but it's true.

Ermm I think there's nothing left out to say about myself in this chaotic posts of mine other than that I'm mostly in my best behavior when I'm in the midst of my friends but if there's anything I left out, I will try to maybe update this post some other time.