I've wandered with all my heart

I have travelled the world in search of beauty, excitement, passion and happiness, but to every place I have wandered I have carried those things with me, within me, knowing that I'll never find them externally if I don't feel them internally.

For months now I've been thinking about travelling and that time is slipping by. I'm not old, however with the last few years virtually taken away from me in as far as travelling overseas I'm feeling antsy.

I can't travel; it's that simple. I'm dealing with a situation that requires me to be here close to my terminally ill mother and I'm ok with it, however accepting the situation doesn't lessen the desire to travel. My guy and I talk about it a lot because it helps to remind ourselves of past experiences with the thought of repeating them and creating new ones; it keeps up upbeat. We talk fondly of places we love, Paris, Italy, Austria, Switzerland and many others which keeps the passion burning, but travel is an impossibility at this juncture.

Last night we were reflecting on past trips and the situation we are in and came to a decision, we're going to plan an overseas trip.

We've always found the trip-planning enjoyable; researching the places we will go, learning about the history or interesting places and things we will find and determining how we can get off the tourist-trail a little and see those places differently. It's an enjoyable part of the trips we've taken and have decided that planning a trip, doing those things I mentioned above, will be a good exercise, will give us something to look forward to and a focus for our thoughts.

We'll not be able to take the trip, not just yet anyway, however planning it will give us something to pour our passion for wandering into.

I love travel, it's been one of the most important experiences in my life and I've wandered the world with all my heart. I will do so again, with my man beside me, and will broaden the experiences I've already had. It's exciting to think about and I'm looking forward to nights to come at home with my boy remembering past trips and experiences and planning new ones.

We've decided tonight is a good time to start. It's going to be cool tonight so I'm preparing creamy salmon penne pasta, a side salad and garlic bread made with olive bread. I've got the perfect bottle of wine selected too...not that I know much about wine. I've picked up a couple cannoli's for dessert and there'll be coffee, there's always coffee. I think, together with the travel planning and the supper I've got arranged, we're in for a really nice Saturday night, it's one we need after the week we've had.

Becca 💗