Small Victory. Hive savings. My Actifit Report Card: April 20 2023
I'm anxious, so I just have to get it out there and turn it into words. It happened three hours ago, so I'm at my peak. I can't think or write about anything else.
I'll just leave it here...
So anxious in the soul right now, but this time it's not without reason. Although there are probably always reasons. They're just sometimes exaggerated. This time, I think I was just trying to play down my anxiety about the future. Not about my future.
I have a superpower.
I read a person's situation and can see several branches of future development.
Most of the time I turn out to be right. But it has stopped bringing me joy lately. Because I see bad things, and they happen...
And for all that, I am an optimistic realist. So I'm very happy when I turn out to be wrong or when I manage to change the future with my actions or words.
A small victory.
Right now, I really need a little victory for myself. More specifically, for my brother, who is too influential in my thoughts and ultimately my peace of mind. The chain starts with him and ends with him, going through our whole family and acquaintances.
I'm afraid of my vision of the future because it would be a huge blow to our mom first and foremost.
I'm afraid to tell him this, because I'll hear a lot of interesting things about myself. But no, not even that.
I'm scared that he won't give himself a chance.
It's a stubborn sign. It's different stuff. And it's a certainty of rightness and immortality. Even though he has the same superpower as I do.
Apparently it only works with others...
Now, I understand a little bit about people who have panic attacks. When you can't control it in any way, it controls you. I wanted to write that I don't like it. But how can it evoke feelings when there are no feelings inside of it other than fear.
The abyss just embraces you...
And nothing else.
I'm not there, and thank goodness. So I'm just going to finish up and run to do some pull-ups on the bar. I know it can help.
It has to help!
You have to do something to stay alive, though...
Hive savings report
I will continue to play the game in the numbers of my achievements on Hive. Below is a table of my daily accumulation of Hive, HP, and layer 2 tokens:
I bought some more LEO as the price has dropped even lower. I just don't believe it won't go back to 10 cents or a dollar. But even if I'm wrong, I'm willing to take those risks. The project is moving forward. And if you don't take the risk in a case like this, you can't take the risk at all...
For now ⬇️
Savings today is $1297.
Hive On! Hive Five! Stay ALIVE!
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