When Does it End?

As a kid, I've always wondered how my dad was able to take five or more tablets of drugs at once when I couldn't even take one, so I came to the conclusion that it was an adult thing and that when I got to a certain age, I would be able to do it too with no stress at all.

I was wrong.

_{photo by Roberto Sorin}

Earlier this morning I had woken up with a splitting headache that felt like it was sent from hell. You know those kinds of headache where you can only walk by closing one of your eyes and tilting your head to the side, it was that bad.

Rather than me doing the right thing and getting drugs for myself, I decided that the only reason I felt this way was because I didn't get enough sleep last night, so I had gone back to bed only to wake up three hours later with a more severe headache than the first one.

Now you would think that I would do the right thing and go get some drugs, nope. My stupid mind told me again that it could be food, because in as much as I wasn't feeling that hungry, it could be that the headache was caused by hunger. So I had begged someone to help me get some food because I could barely talk, not to talk of going down a flight of stairs to buy food.

I ate and few minutes later, it felt like I was in between life and death, and that my head could literally explode at any minute. When it got to this stage, I noticed that my fear of drugs had changed into a fear of death because it now felt like if I didn't do anything about this headache, I could lose my head.

So finally, after waiting forever, I eventually got the drugs and within thirty minutes of me taking it, I now feel a lot better. What's even funny is how I drank that thing like it was nothing.

And that is one thing I've come to realize, that I only tend to willingly take drugs when it's getting too late, because that is when I'm left with the option to either overcome my fear of drugs or die...and I don't know about you guys, but whenever I find myself in a position where one option is death, I always go for the other option.