Trials and Tribulations
As a young child growing up in a Christian home whose father is a pastor, I never thought a day would come where I would feel like I had lost my faith in God and no longer believes in him, especially after the many things and testimonies that I've seen and heard all these years.
But it did happen to me. After a tragic event in the year 2020, I saw myself not wanting to go to church or believe in all of those things that I've been taught in church while growing up. For a while, it felt like I got hit the most with the tragic news but it only felt that way because I was alone and away from home at the time and I had no one to talk to or tell how I was feeling. So I found myself trying to look strong during the day while silently crying my eyes out at night, asking God why me.
I remember during that time, we had an hostel prayer at my and a lady friend had seen me sitting upstairs and had asked if I wasn't going to join the prayers downstairs. My response had been pretty direct.
"What prayer? What's the point?" She knew what had happened to me and so she understood and had left, that was probably the best thing she could have done and I was glad she did it.
But as time went on, I started to have deep conversations with myself about my faith and believes. I spoke to my dad a couple of times and the man was always ready to counsel me and also point me to the bible, showing me places in the scriptures where people went through a lot of things and how their faith were tested.
I won't lie, I still had my doubts but then I decided to travel back home to go be with my family and that was probably the best decision I took that year. Seeing my family happy and trying to be strong amidst the whole thing just gave me a reason to want to believe again, a reason not to give up just yet. I soon realize that sometimes, the love from our love ones is what we need in times of trouble.
But to be honest, that wasn't what entirely restored my faith, that happened some few days later when I went to church and saw my dad preaching. It reminded me of why I was a believer once more and why I should never stop being one. His message on Faith gave me a whole new meaning to what I thought I already knew and it made me realize that being a Christian doesn't mean I won't have challenges, it's how I face those challenges without my faith wavering is what shows the kind of Christian I am.
Learning this lesson wasn't an easy one, and I pray I never have to go through this process to learn anything new ever again in my life.
It is good that you are starting to understand better about what is your relationship with God better. there is a good book that maybe can help you to understand, you can find easily in any library or even free ebooks around the internet : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/When_Bad_Things_Happen_to_Good_People
here you can check a bit about the book =)
Thanks for the link.. I will give it a read.
Faith. It is a word that holds us in many ways. It'll always be tested to make us see things differently and to make us learn more about Him.
I don't know what you weng through, but it might have really been tough... but that's life, init? It's a roller coaster ride.
However, I am glad you were able to get back.
Yeah I think you're right.. Challenges will always come, it's part of life.. We just shouldn't let it question our faith.
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Yes, it is.
You are welcome 😊. Have a great day.
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ertainly, some events make us question God, and perhaps many people have experienced that. However, faith is something strong, and we are constantly tested. I'm glad you have returned to His presence; these fluctuations are normal, and there is no better place than being in the presence of God.
Yeah you're right, I was able to learn a few things during those hard times, hopefully I don't get tested that hard anymore, because it wasn't a fun experience for me.
I think I can write a blog post in response to this post of yours.
Life sometimes become so tough that we are at the verge of losing our faith. But the truth is that those tough times are the real point where our faith is tested. The faith doesn't mean at all that no challenges any more. Instead, faith assures that we are going to survive those challenges and emerge stronger.
Difficulties but not ease make us explore our potential. Without tough times, we may not be the best version of us. The faith makes us see the silver linings in the dark clouds.
I have come to realize that the human companionship is of crucial importance in designing our thought process. Being able to talk to someone who keeps a positive approach in life makes us see the other side of the coin.
I am glad to know that you reconnected to God. He never leaves us. We just need to understand the relation.
Have a nice day
This was something I got to understand and then I tried seeing things differently and not feeling like I was already defeated. They say hard times create tough men and I'm happy I came out of this one victorious.
I am glad you got the victory.
I wish you victories many more
Your journey through this process has given you a profound lesson, one that's valuable and impactful. You've discovered that faith isn't just about belief but about resilience, persistence, and the ability to find hope even in the darkest moments. Your experience will likely guide and strengthen your faith in the future, helping you face challenges with a renewed perspective.
Yup, that whole experience has certainly changed the way I now look at things and I know that I will handle challenges in the future wey more better than I did in the past.
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Life is not a bed of roses. Ups and down is the part of life and sometimes some incident is capable enough to shake our believe in faith. Those moments are not easy to overcome and it takes time but time is the best healer and we start to regain the faith and believe. In 2020 the incident you talked about here your mother's incident if I am not wrong.
Yup you're right, that was the incident..
It's not easy atall to keep the faith when it seemed that God is silence.
It takes a deeper perseverance and humility to completely surrender all to God including our unbelief knowing fully well that whether we believe him or not, He is still God.
Although what I went through was nothing compared to what Job went through in the bible, this whole incident made me question how he was able to survive 😅
It is a fact that there comes a time in life when a person gets worried and doesn't have the heart to trust anyone because of what people say. Then the credibility of the person is lost from everything, but if the person does not stop working hard, then we see that after a short period of time, the person gets a lot of success.
Yeah.. At the end of the day, time heals all wound.