Time Waits For No One
Sometimes, it's way easier to stay alone and not create bonds with anyone because at the end of the day when it's all over, you might end up regretting it.
About an hour ago, I laid on my bed listening to some songs when all of a sudden I got lost in thought and for some reason, I started to think about friends I've either lost contact with or no longer speak to due to life separating us and everyone being busy with their own thing now.
It's a sad thing to think about especially if you and that person used to be real close and created a lot of fun memories together and then all of a sudden you're all strangers all over again. Sadly, this is always the case for me because even though I know I can always keep in contact with you and talk to you on the phone, I just won't.
I don't do it on purpose, I just don't know how to keep in contact with someone I know I won't be seeing for a long time, if not forever, same reason why I don't do long distance relationships. And this is because as times goes on, our conversation becomes like deja vu, almost like it has happened before, only in this case it has. And it's because all we would be doing is asking "how are you and how are things" every time until one of us gives up, so I tend to not go down that road at all.
But seriously, making friends can be beautiful but all of that feeling gets overshadowed when it's time to say goodbye. And yes I know that not all friendships end, some last forever but I'm focused on the ones that do end.
I remember during last year's final exam, a lady at my hostel who was staying with a good friend of mine started to cry because she was done with her exam and was traveling to a whole different state that same day. She wasn't based around the school and would only come around to stay with my friend when it was time for tests, exams or projects.
She began tearing up real bad, hugging everyone and saying goodbye because she knew she won't be coming back here in a long while due to her job at Abuja. The whole scene was so emotional and almost made me tear up because she also was a friend of mine, we just were not as close as she was to my friend.
Thinking about all that sometimes just makes me look at my friends and ask myself if I made the right decision because I know all of them is a heartbreak waiting to happen. But then, this is me focusing on the negative when I should be more focused on the positive which is creating as much beautiful memories as possible because time waits for no one and it's running, fast.
This happens to me very well. I've got so many friends who I no longer talk to not because we have a misunderstanding but everyone's busy with their lives...
I know how that lady felt. I felt this way too when I finished my teaching practice in a school some years back...
Well, I was crying in the corner...lol
I feel everyone feels that way at some point, some people are just really good at hiding it.
With our growth, we started to make many friends and many of them became very close. But because of various kinds of reasons we departed from each other and the offline connection turned into an online connection. But in life, everything is replaceable even if it's a friend. Somehow you will make another friend who replace the missing place of your friend. Everyone remain your friend but after a certain time you will have a good number of friend and it's impossible to stay connected and give time to each friend. So bonds naturally get weaker with them whom we don't meet on a regular basis.
The fact that everyone is replaceable feels really sad to me because there are some people you just do not want to be replace. But yeah I get it, it's life and life goes on no matter what.
This happens to me but not frequently; in school here they are some course mate I was really close to but now, we just say 'hi' to each other in school. And there's wasn't any misunderstanding.
It's seems that's how life is, we can't keep all our friends. An adage says "20 friends cannot play together for 20 yesrs".
Yeah I know. And the strange thing is that no matter how hard we try to make the friendship work, there will always be some friendships that we just can't save no matter how hard we try.
I guess some are meant for shirt term.