Not Now, Not Never
All my life, I've never really been in any form of trouble that was like life threatening or really risky and this is because I've always been that kid that plays by the rules. I've always understood from a very young age that we've only got one life to live and that we could lose that life at anytime especially if we do stupid things and stupid risks so I've always tried to do things the way they should be done.
I try not to take unnecessary risks and even if I must, I make sure I have a plan A to Z, that is how cautious I've always been all my life.
And I guess this is one of the reasons why if anyone calls anyone in my family and tell them I got into a fight or did something dangerous, no one will believe because they all know me to be very calculated when I do things that I feel might get me in trouble. I make sure to be very careful and at the end of the day, I always walk away free without any consequences whatsoever.
As someone who has lived all of his lives avoiding unnecessary risks and changes in his life, it is easy for me to spot something new when they happen to me. I spot them quickly and I access the situation to know if it's something I want to remain in my life or not. And if it turns out to be something I don't want, I always look for a way to get rid of it quickly.
Every since I got into the university (about four - five years ago), I've always made sure to do as I was told. I submitted the assignment when the lecturer asked for it to be submitted even though no one else was done with theirs. I always avoided a situation where I get to be mixed up with the guys who went against whatever instructions that was passed out.
I was an obedient student.
And being an obedient student meant that I was always in class and mostly seated, laughing at the other students as they get punished for not following instructions. Never have I ever being the one laughed at. But now, after four years of being a good student, it seems like everything is starting to change in a way I do not like.
Few days ago, I wrote a post about missing some test because I waa ill, well I just found out it wasn't just one test, I had missed a second one and it wasn't because I was ill or wasn't feeling well, it was just simply because I didn't want to go to class that day.
I know for a fact that the old me would be ashamed of me and I hate it. I hate this new development in my life and I'm going to do all I can to get rid of it before it ruins me. Because that is how it all starts, you steal one cookie and it's no big deal but before you know it, you're stealing the whole jar.
I'm never gonna allow that happen to me, not now, not never.