Not My Clique
This past week has been the worst week for my social life. You see, I happen to be a guy who can be cool with everyone (or almost everyone) but only have a few people who I let into my inner circle; these are people I truly consider to be my friends, while the others are mere acquaintances.
Well, for the past few days, all of these guys who are my friends have had to go away for work. They got a contract that has taken them far away from home for the next few days, and this was days ago. So what that meant is that for the past few days, it has just been myself and the rest of the guys who I don't really mingle with that much.
At first it didn't feel like anything because I've gotten used to enjoying my own company, but every now and then I do have to come outside to sit and hopefully receive some fresh air. And doing that means also sitting with these guys who I'm not really close to and trying to hold conversations with them.
Well, I can tell you for free that these past few days have made me understand better why I'm not really close to these guys because we're all different people. Their sense of humor doesn't relate to mine; I even have different ways of reasoning with them. And there have been times when they said certain things that just don't make sense, but then I see how the rest of the guys react to him, probably agreeing with that person, and I just realize that I'm the only one who isn't following.
I'm not used to being in this position, trying to fit in a place that I clearly know doesn't suit me, but it's fun having to experience this, and it goes to show me how I can't really fake being friends with someone even if I wanted to. Because each time I stay with these guys, I always end up going inside to see a movie or take a nap because it's exhausting being with them.
I'm not saying the guys aren't fun or smart or any of that; I'm just saying that they're not my kind of guy, and because of that, my spirit has refused to accept them or even allow me to have personal conversations with them. They're not my clique.