New year resolution?

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I decided not to make any new year resolution for this year because I've come to realize that I work better when I don't have anything planned, rather than the past years where I had made resolutions and ended up failing woefully at it.

What I found out was that as the year progresses, I look at certain aspect of my life that needs improvement and I just work on it. Last year, one thing I really worked on was the way people perceived me. I've seen the way people treat other people that they perceive to be weak and that was the last thing I wanted for myself (I had seen someone get bullied), especially in an environment like this where everyone is looking for someone to prey on.

So I became tough, and although I got the result that I wanted, it came with a prize. A lot of people saw my toughness as a form of rudeness and although no one messed with me, the number of friends I had (especially with the opposite sex) reduced drastically because as it turns out, girls don't like guys they can't fool around with.

Anyways, it's a new year now and I feel like there's no reason to keep up with the whole tough guy persona, I believe everyone has gotten the message and it's time for me to be approachable again by everyone without them feeling like I would pounce on them if they make use of the wrong word around me (that was never my intentions anyway).

So for this year, the goal is to be more friendly, to laugh more and maybe to let my guard down every now and then because truth be told, it's not like I'm living in the midst of my enemies where everyone is busy looking for ways to attack or bring me down. Besides, I've always been a lovable person and had to force myself to be the guy I was last year, and returning back to the guy I used to be will surely be a much more easier task, compared to that of last year.

And also, I plan on working more on my shyness. I will admit that I've come a long way and I rarely feel shy these days, but there are still certain situation where I see myself and feel extremely shy. The goal will be to purposely put myself in those situations this year and bring myself out without wishing for the ground to open up and swallow me.

So yeah, those are the few things I have planned for this year for now. I get to add more things to the list as time goes on.