My Little Escape
All my life I've only been to three states in this country, two if I'm being totally honest because I didn't spend more than an hour in the third one. But the point is, this country has thirty-six states, and I've only physically been in three (that I clearly can remember), and that is bad to me, especially for someone my age who also has a passion to want to explore.
And that is why, from time to time, I always get this urge to want to be free, to see the world, because it does feel like I'm locked up here. Unfortunately, the only prison I have in my life right now is a lack of money to help finance the life I want to live.
But when you care about something so much that you can't afford it, you look for other alternatives that could help give you the feeling of that thing that you want, especially when you suddenly get overwhelmed by that stuff now and then.
For me, the only way that has seemed to work whenever I feel trapped is to go online and watch videos that were shot outdoors, but rather than focus on the main character or whatever it is the person behind the camera is trying to show me, I focus instead on the other stuff. I focus on the shop at the corner of the screen where someone living their normal life has just walked in, I focus on some random painting on the wall, and I focus on the environment and on things that may seem irrelevant to you, but to me, those irrelevant things are my little escape.
Watching those things in my mind makes me feel like I'm there, like I'm no longer trapped and can finally go anywhere I want to without having to hold myself back for one reason or the other. It is a feeling I always love to feel, and hopefully one day, I will get to experience it in person.