Loneliness

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If there's one thing I rarely talk about, it is loneliness, even though I feel like it's something that should be spoken on almost everyday. And this is because loneliness is usually the start of almost every dumb decision that we've taken. Loneliness is so powerful that it makes us do a lot of stupid things, things we normally wouldn't think of if we had something to keep our minds busy with.

I personally have done a lot of things in the past that I'm not exactly proud of due to the fact that I felt lonely at the time and unfortunately the only thing my mind could think of was doing something I had tried quitting before.

But today's blog isn't about me, it's about a lady friend of mine who everytime on her WhatsApp status would always complain about feeling lonely. She wasn't always this way, but then her boyfriend had to travel to a state far away, leaving her alone here and ever since then she had been terrible.

I tried my best with visiting every now and then but I soon found out that although my visits were helping in some kind of way, it wasn't enough. She needed someone to be there with her at least most of the time and I wasn't that person because I'm not exactly a fan of going to people's home. I do it every now and then but I'm never that constant.

Unfortunately, I recently began to see her move with a certain group of people that I'm not exactly comfortable with due to their lifestyle. But then I didn't say anything because I didn't feel like it was my place to say something, coupled with the fact that we only met last year and I just feel like we haven't gotten to the stage yet where I can advise her about who to follow and who not to follow.

I wouldn't want to upset her or worse, her going to tell those guys that I said they were bad influences for her and creating enemies for myself. Anyways, the whole thing just shows us how powerful being idle and lonely could get.

It gives us this hunger to be in the company of certain things, or in this case, certain people that we don't even care if these things or people are good for us...all we care about is satisfying that hunger of not wanting to feel lonely anymore, so we become a puppet to it, doing whatever it tells us to do, until we find ourselves in certain situations that we can't handle and end up regretting the whole thing.