I Need A Breather
Mental health is something that don't get talked about a lot in this country, and the main reason for that is because a lot of people don't really know much about it. It's either things are going well in their lives, or their village people are after them, hence the reason for the bad luck they've been facing lately.
And sometimes, when whatever it is that is happening in their life starts to mess up with them mentally, they just man up and go about their day like it's nothing. This is probably why it feels like everyone is upset in Lagos, because their mental health is so messed up that it has got to a point where no one is normal any more.
But most of them don't know this, and because they don't know that they have a problem, they don't bother seeking for a solution to it.
Lately, I've been feeling mentally drained, to the extent where it feels like I don't want anybody in my life any more. But you see, what I've learnt so far is that sometimes when I start to feel like this, is the time I need the people who love me most in my life. So rather than isolate myself, I have to force myself to be with the people I believe love me the most.
And in this case, the people being my family. Although to be honest, I know that after spending three days with them, all I would want is to be far away from them because I've so got used to being by myself to the extent where I get uncomfortable when I stay with people for too long, even my own family.
But anyway, I do feel like I really need to recharge myself and go back to being my normal self again because I hate feeling like nothing is working in my life any more, which is why I think going far away from everything presently in my life might help me see the next step that I am to take clearly, or at least help me breathe a bit before jumping into it all over again.