I Don't Like It Here

It's my first night back in Lagos in the past three years, and I already hate it here.

_{photo by Babatunde Olajide}

I honestly can't explain it, but I think it's the environment. To be honest, I feel everywhere (probably aside from the north) is better than Lagos State, yet people hype it so much, you feel like you're missing a lot by not being there.

But in reality, the only things here are just chaos and overpopulation. It's crazy how when I was in the east, all I wanted to do was come back home, and yet the moment I got back, I already felt like jumping on a night bus to go back to where I came from, and I hadn't even spent an hour here.

Also, I guess another thing that contributes to me feeling this way is the fact that Dad moved to a new apartment in a new location. And if there's one thing I hate, it is feeling like the new kid on the block. Having that feeling makes me feel like I'm being watched by everyone as I walk past the street, and it's a feeling I do not like.

If it were up to me, I would sit at home throughout this holiday and then move out the moment it gets to the first week of January, but unfortunately, it's not up to me, which brings me to another reason why I hate it here.

Having to move from being in charge of everything in my life, getting up only when I want to get up, and doing things at my own convenient time is something I didn't know I wasn't prepared for yet. Three years is a long time to learn a habit, and I've learned to do things my way and on my own time.

Sadly, for the next four weeks, I will have to adjust and reset my brain back to its factory settings, which is something I'm honestly not looking forward to.

But hey, I just got here; maybe I'm just being too quick to judge and might end up liking it here before I leave. Although I highly doubt that. We will all just have to watch and see.