Having that talk with myself
Most times, I do this thing where I get real with myself, I cut out the bullshit and just have real conversations in my head. These are things that no other human will ever find out about me because some of these things could be real ugly and would expose a part of me that you guys probably never knew existed.
So these are real private conversations and I will be discussing one of them with you guys today. Although, to be completely honest, what I will be talking about today will probably be ranked lowest amongst the craziest real talk that I do have with myself and I feel that's why I'm comfortable sharing it with you guys out here.
Anyways, there was a day I and my friends were discussing about corruption in the country and how people in power are embezzling money and just putting the country in debts. And during that conversation, someone had asked if I would still the same way I feel right now about the country if someone from my family was in government, embezzling money too.
At the time, the question didn't seem like a deep one to me, so I had said yes because I want what's best for everyone, for the people. But you know that thing that happens where you get a flashback of a conversation you had days, months or even years ago, and you just start thinking about it and end up with different ways you could have gone about that situation.
Well I had one of those today. I was brushing my teeth when that question came back to my mind and this time it was just me asking myself the same question. And what that meant was that it was time for me to be real with myself because I'm not trying to impress anyone with my response, and also, if I lied to myself, I will be able to tell because it's myself.
Sadly, after thoroughly thinking about it for some few more seconds, I found myself coming up with a different answer. You see, why I might not be as heartless as the current politicians and take everything for myself, I feel like if I find myself in such a position where either myself or my family member could embezzle money, I probably would do it.
I just won't take all of it.
It's bad, I know it but this is what my mind is telling me at the moment and I could end up being wrong if I do get to that position in real life. I could end up doing what's right or even do worse by stealing everything for myself.
And this is because if there's one thing I know, it is that money and power has a way to intoxicated people. You might say one thing now that you don't have the money and power, but the moment you do, you find yourself doing something completely different.
I do feel what you are saying but still I don't agree with your closing remark, I believe all these is a thing of priority and I do hope you set yours straight to.
Money and power only intoxicate when it lacks reason or wrong expectations due to bad emotional intelligence which should be worked upon, before getting anything one most know it's use, including money as money is a tool and you should also be realistic about how to get it by having a proper study and good EQ by learning. To me that's all you need to start renewing your mind money and avoid being intoxicated.
Actually I do stand on what I said and this is because I've not only seen it but I've experienced it too. Maybe yeah, with the proper understanding one can get to be a better man (or woman) with good self-control when it comes to this things, but generally, money and power tend to get people drunk.