Feeling Helpless

Whenever we talk about problems, everyone in the room always claims to have the toughest problems until we all start to talk and then you realized that compared to the next man, you actually do have a better life and should be grateful to for it. That is exactly how I feel right now because I know someone who's currently going through it right now and all I want to do is forget about my problems and help them if and when I can.

_{photo by Sivani Bandaru}

Not to go deep into his business, but I normally would see this guy staring into nothing, like he's lost in space or something, and you could tell that he had some very deep stuff weighing him down. Well I eventually decided to ask, and the moment he opened his mouth to speak, I could tell that he desperately was looking for a way, any way to get some of these weights off him.

Now aside from the financial debt that this guy is into and the fact that he no longer has a mobile phone because the previously got damaged, his dad is partially blind and has to constantly apply eyes drops on his eyes due to the fact that they can't afford the money it will cost to get his eyes fixed yet, so the eyedrops is kinda just managing the situation.

Then there's his mom who suddenly fell ill and needs money to get treatments but is also managing her sickness (while getting lean day by day) just so that she too could continue to go to work and hopefully get enough money to buy drugs for herself too.

Basically, his entirely problem all boils down to one thing, money, but the way the whole thing is scattered and with him being like the son who's suppose to be the breadwinner when pops can no longer work like he used to, is just making the whole thing worse on him.

Sincerely speaking, it's a still a surprise to me that he hasn't tried to do anything stupid yet because when they say that certain conditions pushes us to do certain stuff that we normally wouldn't think of, this is definitely one of those.

And what's even a lot more sad was the tone of his voice when he opened up to me, you could hear the helplessness in it, almost as if he has given up hope and is ready to accept whatever it is that happens next. It's sad to see a man feel that way, especially when you know there's nothing you can do to help.

Although every now and then, I do try to help in my own little way by trying to get his mind off it because the last thing any one of us wants right now is him doing something crazy to himself due to the fact that he has gone crazy from thinking too much and can no longer thing straight anymore.