Errmmm help?
I may or may not have just witnessed a couple of murders in the last thirty minutes.
If you know me or you used to read some of my blogs back in the day, then you may have read on one or two of those blogs where I talked about how much I hate stuff that tend to remind me of my mortality.
As a kid, I used to fear death so much that I remember I would often think of what life would be like without my parents. The thoughts were always scary and then I lost my mom and the whole thing went from being an ordinary thought in my head to reality and I still haven't recovered from that.
I had to force myself to learn how not to think about loved ones losing their lives, because in as much as death is inevitable, it's not exactly healthy when all you think about everyday is what if something bad happens to someone you love.
Well, fortunately for me, I found a way to make myself stop thinking about it, although it would occasionally cross my mind when I read certain things online or see certain videos on the internet, like the one I saw this evening on tiktok.
It was a video of a young guy mourning his kid brother who passed away. Of course the video reminded me of my mom and for a minute I felt sad again, so I decided to leave the app and go on instagram to just pass time and possibly brighten up my mood.
Mind you, I'm not a big instagram guy, I rarely go on the app, this was actually my first time this year going on it. Tell me why almost every Instagram reel that I watched had to be about someone dying. And this isn't even like a burial video or someone crying about the death of a love one kinda video, it is an actual video of someone getting unalived one way or the other.
The last one I watched before deciding that I've had enough, was a video of a lady getting shot in the head. And this didn't look like something from a movie scene, it felt like I was witnessing murder and could probably get arrested for it.
Makes me wonder what that app has turned into because the last time I checked, the admins (or whatever they call them) used to take down videos like this. Did they stop or have I just not been on the app for a long time and they somehow changed the rules on videos with violence on it, or is my algorithm just messed up tonight?