A New Discovery

_{photo by Matthew Stephenson}

Growing up, I always felt I was an introvert due to how I was always at home and barely had any friends to play with due to the fact that we moved away from the area where I grew up and actually had friends in. So I spent most of my days indoors and it got to a stage where it felt like work having to go out to do anything, all I wanted was to lie on my bed and press my phone all day.

But then I moved over to school and although I didn't really go out to any events during my school days, I began to go out a lot after I was done with school, so I felt I was now an ambivert, someone who could stay indoors and still turn up outside when I want to.

But recently, it seems that isn't exactly the case. You see, I'm starting to realize that maybe I'm no longer that much of an introvert like I used to think I was because these days, in as much as I can stay indoors for an amount of time, it gets to a stage sometimes where I just feel like I could go crazy if I don't come out to talk to someone, and I confirmed that today.

In my blog yesterday, I had written about my friends getting ready to go out for a job today that would make them spend some days over there before returning back home. Well, they left this morning and the entire hostel has been like a desert ever since, or at least that's how it feels to me seeing how they're the ones I talk to the most.

Feeling that way has made me realized how much I've changed over the years and how I can no longer spend days or hours indoors by myself like I used to do back in the past. Honestly, I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing but what I know for sure is that I hate this feeling and I really have to look for a way to fix it because the last thing I want is having to feel this way everytime they all go out without me.