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January Diary.

Baby,

You are special to me, you're the only one I wouldn't mind losing sleep for, the only one I can never get tired of talking to and you're the only one who crosses my mind constantly throughout the day. I just can't explain with words how much you mean to me. I don't wanna lose you. When we first met, I never thought that you would mean this much to me but I'm so grateful I got the blessing to meet you and have you in my life.

You're absolutely mind-blowing, I don't see that in anyone but you. I'm actually so in love with every little thing about you and every little thing you do makes me fall even harder. I love you and nothing in the world compares to you. I've had my fair share of relationships and none has ever come close to being like this. You are the most incredible man I have ever met. You're the love of my life and my best friend. I don't think I'd ever want it any other way and I promise that I'd always love you with my whole heart.

I love being with you. There's no one else I'd rather be with. You make me smile in a way no one can and you annoy me the same way too. You make me laugh as no one else can. You're the first person I wanna see/talk to and the last person I wanna see/talk to at night. I have never loved anyone the way I love you. It is impossible for me not to love you. I love you without question, I love you with all my heart and soul. I would never get tired of saying it.

I love you for giving your heart to me.
I love you for wanting me and needing me by your side.
I love you for the emotions I never knew I had.
I love you for your thoughts of me, where I'm always on your mind.
You're the best, my love.
I keep on annoying you but you still manage to deal with me every single time.
Sometimes I become a kid who constantly needs your attention, sometimes I become a mature person, sometimes I act dumb, sometimes I become sad, sometimes I don't believe in myself, sometimes I lose my confidence, sometimes I get very negative, but you're always there.

Having you by my side is the best thing that has ever happened to me! I love you enough to fight for you, compromise for you and sacrifice myself for you if need be. Enough to miss you incredibly when we're apart no matter what length of time it so for. Enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in our strength and to never give up on us. Thank you for the love and joy you bring. You're the only man who gives my heart some excitement and thrills. When I'm with you I feel like I'm out of control.

I know that I acted like a fool and I am sorry. I shouldn't have jeopardized what we share because of how the revelation hit me. I should have let you walk me through it. I know that I tend to push you away when I'm going through stuff and I promise you that It would never happen again. I guess it's just because I'm used to handling things on my own. I didn't realise I was hurting your feelings. I would never hurt you on purpose, I swear. If I had my way I'd be with you this minute. You came into my life just when I needed you. You've been my knight in shining armour right from the very beginning. You always go out of your way to make me happy. Nobody has ever been this way with me. I've never been loved as you do. I want to put in as much effort as you do henceforth, I don't wanna hurt your feelings anymore. I thought the whole thing though after we said good night and I realized that you are not overreacting, I would feel the same way if I were in your shoes. I love you to pieces, honestly. I love you every second of every day and I miss you beyond words. I miss making you smile and saying I love you. I miss feeling you close to me and looking at you.

Missing you reminds me of how much you're worth it. Meeting you was fate, becoming your best friend was a choice but falling in love with you was beyond my control but I wouldn't have it any other way. I still remember the feeling I felt when we first kissed. I absolutely love being yours.

You are everything that I never knew I wanted in this life. My love for you is more than love, it's more like an addiction. You're a part of me that I can't replace. I love you with everything that's within me. I wouldn't ever replace you with anyone else. I wouldn't trade our memories. I don't want to be with any other person except for you. My heart belongs to you today and always. I am obsessed with you. You're everything a man should be.

If I had my life to live over again, I would find you sooner so that can I can love you longer.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I'm soo sorry for everything baby. Most especially the fact you felt you weren't enough and also the fact that I haven't gotten you anything yet. It's not like I don't have it in mind to, I will but please just give me a little more time, I beg you. Nothing is ever enough to let you know how much you mean to me. You're absolutely the best honey and would forever love you.

February.

Good morning, DEAREST.

Letter Of Apology For Been A Naughty Fellow...

I know how difficult this has been for you. I feel terrible, and I sincerely apologize that I unknowingly took you for granted. I deeply appreciate you being in my life and supporting me through everything. You do matter a lot to me, and I regret not being able to show you through my actions how much I care for you.

Getting together with you has been one of the most amazing things that happen to me. You have been nothing but kind, caring, considerate, and sweet to me. how come I was so blind to have realized it...

I am at a complete loss for words because nothing I do will ever be enough to make up for this awful mistake. Trust, loyalty and communication are the building blocks of any loving relationship, and I have completely let you down in all these areas. There is nothing I can say or do to make you trust me again but, if there is one thing you know about me, it is that I love you and I love us more than anything else in my life. I hope that we can find our way back to love.

I can never forget how our love started and how you showed me love. How you made me everything to you. That feeling of deep intense affection has never left me, and I keep thanking God for bringing an amazing person like you my way. I want to assure you of one thing, and that is the best version on me had come to stay...

Sweetheart, I am truly sorry. I wish I could take back the hand of time, but I promise you I won't take you for granted, will always listen to everything and anything you tell me, will henceforth make the right decision... but promise me you won't find another sugar baby..... . your mean everything to me Zaddy...

Cheers.

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