So I have made two posts about Charlie's death already. I made them while while the news was still very fresh while I was fully in shock, this third post comes after I have digested the news a bit so I hopefully will be a bit more precise and intentional with this post. Hopefully.

First off yeah, politics does interest me to a decent degree and I am chronically online. So yeah, it is what it is. I'm absolutely a flawed individual.

I am not afraid to admit that I do appreciate what I feel are good examples, I am not afraid to admit Charlie Kirk was a significant role model for me.

Being chronically online, I know everyone online thinks they're the smartest person on the internet. The internet has gotten weird and who knows what's a real account or a bot account these days. Ugh, but whatever man.

Many internet users do in fact think they're the smartest people. Many people holler things like 'both sides suck bro' or 'you're just falling for the propaganda bro'.

Can anyone really say they don't fall for propaganda? Wouldn't the best propaganda go unnoticed, silent subtle brainwashing or steering of opinions?

I personally feel that people who have limited or zero foundation in their world views and infinitely give word salad explanations as to why they sit on the fence on every single significant topic in all meaningful world issues are the most soft, mushy propagandized people the internet has birthed. If there's a massive population of people who simply ignore the world around them and simply go by 'if it makes you happy bro that should be enough' that type of population is likely ideal for the rich to stay rich.

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Charlie Kirk resonated with me and so many people because, as far as most of us saw in his content, Charlie Kirk was seemingly the ideal American. I truly don't think non-Americans would necessarily understand this fully. Then again, I don't pretend to know what it's like to be anything else but American. But that's the vibe I get.

Charlie Kirk had rock solid, mostly immovable ideas. Whether or not you agreed is kind of irrelevant to an extent.

Democrats offer what exactly? A bunch of feelings and vague abstractness. Like I don't even understand what type of future they want for America like everything about them seems pretty undefined and loosey-goosey. They have this idealist mindset that sounds good on paper, but that's as far as it goes, the piece of paper.

Should one choose to ignore politics? Sure, I guess. I just don't enjoy being the guy who turns a blind eye and crosses their fingers that everything will be ok. 'Things will work out' or 'both parties stink'. I mean that's just so weird to me. So lazy. Lazy people pretending to be wise and above it all.

Charlie Kirk seemed wonderfully blunt, intelligent, charismatic and kind. He showed that Republican view points can easily hold their own. Before Charlie, a lot of Republicans seemed harsh and kinda unprepared. Charlie was seemingly an evolved, relaxed Republican.

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Charlie Kirk was truly built different, this man was literally self taught and I'd bet he could debate probably anyone. The guy seemed to just read book after book and he'd just go forth in life with unshakable confidence. Charlie Kirk kinda felt like the Michael Jordan of politics or something. I'm not really a history expert but he seemed pretty one of a kind.

I feel as though before Charlie the narrative was that Republican view points and talking points could never ever hold up against liberals and all their emotional manipulation tactics. Charlie basically said, 'hold my beer and let me cook.'

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At this point, I'm pretty angry about his death. I don't know what the stages of grief are, HA.

Charlie was a dude on a screen, yes. I never met him, of course. He was not family. To some it may be strange to be so worked up by a public figure's death, but OH WELL.

I'm sure for most there is some figure they're a fan of that, if they were to drop dead or be literally murdered in front of the world, it would bother them, they just don't know until it happens. Like, I didn't expect to feel this grief. I didn't expect to feel the need to rant about Charlie Kirk. Totally blindsided.

Charlie's death simply came out of nowhere. Like seriously out of nowhere. Such a wholesome force of nature only slightly older than me.

The assassination of Charlie Kirk feels like a sort of shadow assassination on everyone that agreed with Charlie. It feels oddly personal in a way I can't put my finger on.

Kirk was pretty much the guy many young American men would have thought they'd become as children and they imagined their future. Not necessarily some outspoken political figure like him, but in the way Charlie lived his life and crushed it at everything he set forth to do.

Charlie loved God, family, the USA, football and just had a wise gentle aura about him. Hard worker. Simple in the BEST WAY possible. Like that's kind of what set him apart. I don't think I ever saw him yell angrily or crazily ever. He was even keeled 24/7. I have watched hours and hours of his stuff, ya just gotta take my word for it or watch him yourself.

He was sort of the stereotypical white picket fence kind of guy and was SHAMELESS about it. He'd kind of smirk at those who thought he was lame for being this way. Americans like me know deep down that's all we want in life. To just own a home, have a family and idk, just have the life the founding fathers wanted. Freedom. Peace. Simplicity.

The world seems to always want to be edgy or something, I don't know.

Charlie's death has seriously caused my brain to glitch. Murdering him feels like someone literally murdered a unicorn or some other mystical precious animal. It's like they murdered a new species of American that had a population of.... one.

I have been all over YouTube watching reactions to this tragedy and I have weird energy. Seriously weird energy I've never felt before.

I am hurt by this and yeah I guess it will pass, but never fully.

Over five years ago, I started watching Charlie and have ever since. I have his podcast on Podcast Addict and everything.

When I first discovered his content, I had just had a huge breakup, was lost living with a family member, really miserable about life.

Charlie was not just a political figure and that's a detail that's lost on a lot of people, he was incredibly knowledgeable about Christianity and Jesus Christ and those talks meant a lot to me.

Kirk made me sort of find meaning and structure in life in a way when life felt empty. He made it seem like there was a future despite how desolate the world felt.

I sometimes would avoid watching his stuff because I literally could not take how wholesome he was. Maybe that's a me issue and I need to find some self-worth but idk, Kirk was a real great example.

But yeah, I mostly find myself angry now. My brain is like deeply confused.

I think writing this out helps.

I suppose the news cycle will move on eventually, but Charlie was such a massive figure that it's going to be really really weird.

I mean they tried Trump twice? And now they got Charlie for real. It feels incredibly unsettling.

I don't know what to think. When I feel like I'm getting over it, I see Kirk's face on YouTube. Or I remember the nights when my big breakup happened years ago and how listening to Kirk talk about the world was really interesting, distracting, and cool. I guess I won't be over it for awhile.

I hope they catch this fool that did this asap. What a vile vile piece of sewage.

Kirk has a ton of content on YouTube and that's nice. I'm not ready to watch yet but I definitely will watch soon. Unbelievable. It's nice that his kids at least will have all the content he created to watch. Crazy man.

I seriously can't believe this at all. Ugh.

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I am glad I discovered Charlie for all these years. There's really not enough words to say about how bad this feels as far as a public figure's death is concerned. I'll definitely proudly inform my son about him as he gets older.

It's wild man. He should have lived for much longer. I guess the pain will fade at some point. It's going to be really eerie talking about him as time passes, I don't know if future generations will understand how impactful this guy was.

Well, luckily there's a crazy amount of content of his that lives on.

I hurt at a spiritual level, I think that's this undefinable glitch I'm feeling. Like Kirk was way too good for this.

Kirk's ideas and memory will live on.

That's it for this post. All the videos I've been watching just had me antsy. I had to get stuff off my chest.

Rest in peace Charlie Kirk, your memory will never die.