9/3/22

Man, I've been really neglecting Hive in a lot of ways, and I am not proud of it. But as soon as I can, I will be investing into Hive for the first time in awhile. I'm looking forward to it.

I don't sleep much nowadays, and it's weird. I don't have friends, I stick to myself. While it feels natural in a lot of ways, I can't say I really pictured this for myself or that I am truly fully content about it.

I feel myself getting sort of desensitized, bored and uninterested in life. But not even in a depressing way I think? I just care about my son, and getting money right about now.

I don't really trust many people, or believe anyone cares about me truly.

It's nice to have a friend there for you when you need it, but what about having a friend when you don't? What about having a friend just there, because? I guess there's a balance I don't know. I've heard it a thousand times, friends and family can't always be there, everyone has a life to live and priorities.

It just gets hazy when you have literally zero friends. My fault in the end, I push a lot of people away. Gross. I'm just gross sometimes.

But yeah, I've got food to last me until I get paid. Gonna be a nice check, gonna get a lot of needs and pay some bills and save and invest. Then repeat.

I'm just in stoic, robot mode right now. I want things to happen instantaneously sometimes.

Still binge watching Youtube, while basically playing Madden on mute. I'm spoiled by today's innovations and inventions. Just a spoiled brat.

I don't know how I managed to pay rent this month, but I did it. Yay me.

But honestly, thanks to my job and HIVE!!! I got it done, and I even fed myself. Thanks to all the upvotes here. The community is pretty legit.

Hive on folks.