9/15/22

I am so utterly pissed off, just disgusted. I tried to make a video on my shit old phone that has zero memory, had it all edited and everything, all for my phone to simply not have enough memory. I had a whole video planned, ready to try out 3speak and this is the result.

nothing.

Nothing is my life. I am nothing. I am so pissed like, I just have no idea what else to say anymore. I was fucked as soon as my father died when I was an infant. Raised by an insane mother that mentally destroyed me and my ability to even by kind, or normal. I don't have real friends I pushed them all away like she pushed her whole family away.

I am so sick in the head man. So fucked. I really am such a fucking loser hahahaha. I don't even want an upvote, I deserve nothing. This place seems to be a bunch of bots anyway.

I am just so angry at my life, so angry for all my stupid decisions. That's my life, a series of terrible decisions and now look at myself. If I leave now, my son will be fucked just like me and the cycle continues. I'm so dumb, so useless.

'What goes up on the internet, stays on the internet.' I don't give a shit hahahahaha