11/6/22

Ugh. This weekend has been sort of really stressful and really just up and down. I don't even know man.

As much whining and complaining I do on here blogging, I can sometimes forget how much my own boy can be struggling. Makes me so sad. So glad we are together today.

My friend and I are now former friends. It sucks, but not as much as I would have thought. Our friendship was weird, and it's not like we hang out other than just like sending memes to each other. I need real friends or none at all. Fake friendship, fake caring, nope. We would go many months and even years without seeing or speaking to each other. Our lifestyles simply are entirely too different. Just like most girls nowadays, all they seem to do is analyze and judge. Thinking they're super wise or like an amateur freelance armchair psychologist.

I have goals and things and like I need to do me. Nobody seems to have faith in me.

Yeah man. I'm in a weird place in my head but all I know is my goals remain the same. No worrying. Just working grinding getting money to hopefully be financially independent.

I paid a lot of bills, bought food and bus fare. I also bought Madden 23. I plan on posting a lot of Madden content over time and so perhaps doing that will pay for Madden by itself eventually.

I know it's trendy to hate on Madden, but I love it.

I have a lot of stress and things on my mind, but life moves to fast to be crazy worried. Getting too old.

Meh. Just going to pray everything works out and keep on grinding. Life can be a pain. Life can be a bitch. Hive on folks.